Monday, June 2, 2008


There are some articles that I wanted to post today, but I feel like I'm falling apart today. The culmination of not having anywhere near enough money to pay rent coupled with an inability to focus on work for more than five minutes and just generally feeling like crap has taken its toll. I'd go home if we didn't desperately need the money, so I'm stuck here until I get off work to go home and spend time with someone I'm pissed off with [He gave me milk that expired today when I'm so sensitive that I can't drink milk that's more than a week old. His reasoning? "It hadn't expired, yet."] and I have a friend from church who just lost her mother a few days ago that I'm going to try to call...but how do I console someone in their time of need when my typical sayings no longer mean anything to me (i.e. "Everything happens for a reason")? I'm going to call her and, hopefully, be a good listener, because I'm going to be useless in any other capacity.

Useless. That's an interesting word.

The music I'm listening to right now is not really depressing, but it's upsetting me anyway (which would make you think I'd stop listening to it, but the songs that really get to me are coming up, and I'm trying to avoid them right now). So I mess with my own head when I'm already unbalanced. Yeah, I do that sometimes.

I think I'm going to take a break in our "nap" room (we actually have one of those along with a lactation room because, let's face it, we have a lot of women who work here). I think I need some time to crash a little so that I can put myself back together without people asking me if anything's wrong. I really don't need that right now (so I'm posting instead because...?).

Besides, I really want to post about the idiots who robbed a bank with thongs on their faces. As depressed as I am today, I still find that funny (but since I don't know if I'll laugh or cry, I'm going for my break).


David Dust said...

"Unhinged" is such a descriptive term...I am feeling the same way.

It seems I find myself feeling like this on many Monday mornings after particularly disappointing weekends.

And the LAST thing I want is for someone to ask: "What's wrong??". That makes me INSANE.

BTW - The story of the bank robbers and the thongs IS funny - whether you're unhinged or not.


SailorAlphaCentauri said...

I think I really needed to hear that today. Thank you so much! I feel a little less alone, and that is monumental on a day like today.

David Dust said...

Right back at ya...